Once upon my life... Reminiscence

Well hello..hello..hello to all my followers and guests who read my blog

* background voices; duhh? do u even have 1? Loser!!! ...
Argkhh.. Shaddap!! I kill U ;p (sound of knife stab on and on again)

Well as i was saying,... hello to all, thank you for visiting my blogs although it was mostly about my boring life... =.="

There's so much things happening inside my life and to be honest, i think i need to re-learn Emotional Intelligence all over again...
Ignorance, Insensitivity are 2 things that WILL EVENTUALLY cause Conflict...

Don't believe it? It's true!! Both of it was a recipe to a total disaster... so here's my advice... for ya'll

1) BE ALERT you may think what you said as nothing but it's always something to anyone else. What make things worst is when you heard it from other people because different people interprets things differently.
2)If u want to be Ignorance, do it IF AND ONLY IF you don't want to create trouble (to maintain PEACE ) but remember! Each action comes with consequences... so be prepare..not everybody can accept it when u suddenly change from being the person who meddles with problems that's not theirs into someone who ignore things whether it's completely or just slightly...

All of these my dear readers, will surely leads to CONFLICT. So there it is, the recipe for disaster. Ignorance+Insensitivity=CONFLICT

Once upon my life... Dream

Since 2 weeks ago, my life was totally messed up. My diet plan didn’t go as planned and I barely maintained my weight within 82-85 kg. Maybe the stress has finally accumulated enough to become depression probably... :’( well I don’t think so... ha.ha.ha. at least I still dreamed everyday.. ;-)
Dreams.. Is it fiction... or reality?
Nobody knows but...who cares?
Last night I dreamed of someone whom I might or I might not know.... but it was a very pleasant one for sure... :)

I dreamed, the two of us were on a vacation someplace where the beach’s sands was as white as snow and the waves was gentle.. the red and gold rays of sun radiance as we walk along the beach.. holding hands.. her delicate hands felt cold at first but it gets warmer as we keep holding hand as we stroll along the beach... the warmth of her hand felt real...very real..
She was wearing a dark green dress with white dots ... along with her nice white summer hat.. we continued walking down the beach.. still holding hands and suddenly her hat's blown away by the gentle warm breeze and it reveals her dark brown curly hair which waves in slow motion... She looked extremely beautiful... her eyes radiance as it

stared at me...
After stunned for a second, i went to get her hat and when I come back, we sat down on the white sands, watching at the sunset... She was clinging to my arm and her head was on my shoulder and we just sits there, watching at the sun

Suddenly it rained...her face was extremely happy when it rains and she was smiling as the rain drops on her face. I stood there..watching at her with joy on her face.. After a minute or two. the rain gets heavier and she grab my hand and we heads toward a hut ...taking shelter from the downpour... we were drenched and wet and her curly hair was sticking to her face... I could not resist my feelings anymore.. i reached my hands toward her face and as i stroke her hair to the back, revealing her ear... i kissed her and she kissed me back..

Oh, how I wished the time would’ve stop forever.. leaving just the two of us inside this fantasy world of mine...

Waiting = patience = torment

I can wait forever but i may not have the patience and waiting is truly a torment...

Once upon my life...

Lot of things happened. This past month had been a very busy months... First is the language camp; again lots of thing happened.. we played games, visits school (first xp as teacher) and does lot of lame thing as well but the most interesting one was talent time where we acted out in front of everyone)
Next would be the Macbeth drama...we have start preparing for it and though it kills me, im glad that i am the scriptwriter ( Though my plan to modernize Macbeth had failed 4 times, it was rejected by the senior lecturers who don't want things to change...sigh*) but finally after giving up the idea and worked with their suggestion, i present to you MacDepp... adaptation of Macbeth...Sabahan version..wakakaa (totally worked out, i can feel my soul sapped out for the last 1 week...fuhh...) I realised with 12 brains in the team, i only need their feedback so i can edit the text cause when the 12 of us do things separately, the story will be like... chaos....wkakakak
So with the previous text that we've done, i decide to do the editing all by myself in order to prevent that...then after i finished doing the editing, i call out all the leaders and scriptwriters to discuss..finally my work is done..all that's left, helping out the other team...

One drop of tear....

One drop of tear holds a million meaning behind...it may convey love, hatred or jealousy...one thing that's clear, it will always means something
its a part of being human as its a reaction from our emotion...

whenever i looked at tears, i will definitely feel bad...really bad...

i hate tears especially one that i cannot do anything about it...

i simply do not like standing while looking at them..
maybe it's because of my sense of empathy... or is it my pride? well i don't know....

i hate being unable to do anything whenever tears starts dropping from one's eyes....i really do...sigh*

Sometimes i wish this feeling will just vanish...leaving me behind with nothing but pride yet i do not want to let go of it, for it makes me human...being prideful doesn't mean that one has become unhuman..

it's just that for me...this feeling is precious for it help me to get closer to everyone...

maybe i'm naive but i love making friends...i really do... and when i does, i don't simply consider them as friend but as brothers and sisters...

that's why i will do everything that i could to get in term with everyone..to help them and help myself...

and that's also why its hard for me...

Oh~ how i wish... i can be prideful and still keep my sense of empathy at the same time....

One's pride or One's principal in life?

Being naive or standing up for one's pride, which do you prefer?
Well if it's me i'll choose to be naive if i am too live up to my principal which is; satisfy other first before yourself. Well it's not that i don't have a pride at all but one's pride can be keep inside when one's mind tell oneself too be humble. And if you're wondering whether or not people will step on you, then the answer is....YES!

Of course its human nature to step over things when given an opportunity especially when the one who's being step on is being lenient...Too lenient...sigh*
People may call it stupid and continuously stress upon one's naivety but is it simply naivety and stupidity?

It is hard to be naive when you yourself know what will happen; how they'll treat you,what's the risk of being one and furthermore will you stand living up to your own principle? For instance, when you are being too kind to others, they might think that you are easy to be manipulated but what they don't know is ONE is being kind with conscience and willingness..

Yes..its true that its not easy to be such person as at times, one will face doubt whether to continue being kind; satisfying other need before oneself or to be prideful and simply ignores them...

this applies to all sort of relationship...as a leader; when you become a good leader, then of course people will start to take light of you...and its hard to command them but the relationship are great...though it might be a double-edge sword; when there's problem in the society..the leader with highly sense of empathy will be feeling responsible for everything...sigh* so which one will we choose? being naive or being prideful? hmmphh...it depends on oneself...

How's life define by me...

Hello everyone...it has been a long time since i've blogged and finally today i have the luxury to blog...and today is also bloggers day so HAPPY BLOGGER DAY i bid to all blogger regardless the active blogger nor the inactive one... ^^

Well today i would like to blog about life; how's life to me...In recent mock exam, while i was sitting for Language Development paper, i came across an interesting quotation by i forgot who...hahaha but she's an ordinary women who sells vegetables at market but able to donate hundred thousand dollars to those who were in need.... She said "My principle in life is simple.When i'm happy, i know that i have done something good and when i'm not happy, i've done something bad...

Well i agree with her dor when im happy i know that i have done good thing bit i disagree that when im not happy i have done something wrong..To me life is simple..my first principle in life is

"Never HURT woman."

Having said that, I am proud to say that up to this day, I have live up my first principle...I NEVER hurt woman in life physically....i dont know if i have hurt them in other ways and if i did i am truly sorry.... T-T

Why did i said never to hit women? Well in my opinion, women are fragile but not in the bad way. They represent all the softness,kindness and as a man,It's our job to protect them from being harmed in any way and not to harm them for they are sacred! Who delivers you into this world? YOUR MOTHER! Women are filled with kindness even if they didn't show it directly they possess all the thing that soothes a person... Since little i was exposed to story that shows me how men supposed to protect women ( knight and princess, prince and princess) and as i grew up... i have assimilate with these way of thinking...

Having high sense of empathy or empathetic as well as high sense of caring towards people...i have developed another principle which is let other be happy though you yourself suffer...i will do anything in my reach and power to help those(people i care for) who are in need...Often people judge me for being too kind...for those whom i care it doesn't matter whether they end up hurting me or betraying me or what...cause I forgive them cause I care...It's alright if i get hurt because of someone cause the experience will help me grow up and evolve to become much stronger as an individual and as a member of society...I will help them as hard as i could and if i need to put myself in danger, its worth it..for friends help each other without expecting payment or thanks...

This is also an effect of growing up while reading many books and watching many movies which highlights friendship and sacrificing without expecting anything..I found these action as noble deed and i myself dream of helping my friends like those Heroes who are merely a man..nothing special...and sometimes unappreciated by 99% people who read or watch it but let me be the 1% who does appreciate them and inspired by their action...No need for us to force other to open their eyes when they are blinded by the world...its enough for us to be there for them and continue helping them in any way we can...for life would be better when you help other...Well, at least that is what i feel when i do so..i feel content and better...for those who agree try it...and for those who disagree...it's alright...we the 1% people will always be there for you..