Once upon my life...

Lot of things happened. This past month had been a very busy months... First is the language camp; again lots of thing happened.. we played games, visits school (first xp as teacher) and does lot of lame thing as well but the most interesting one was talent time where we acted out in front of everyone)
Next would be the Macbeth drama...we have start preparing for it and though it kills me, im glad that i am the scriptwriter ( Though my plan to modernize Macbeth had failed 4 times, it was rejected by the senior lecturers who don't want things to change...sigh*) but finally after giving up the idea and worked with their suggestion, i present to you MacDepp... adaptation of Macbeth...Sabahan version..wakakaa (totally worked out, i can feel my soul sapped out for the last 1 week...fuhh...) I realised with 12 brains in the team, i only need their feedback so i can edit the text cause when the 12 of us do things separately, the story will be like... chaos....wkakakak
So with the previous text that we've done, i decide to do the editing all by myself in order to prevent that...then after i finished doing the editing, i call out all the leaders and scriptwriters to discuss..finally my work is done..all that's left, helping out the other team...

One drop of tear....

One drop of tear holds a million meaning behind...it may convey love, hatred or jealousy...one thing that's clear, it will always means something
its a part of being human as its a reaction from our emotion...

whenever i looked at tears, i will definitely feel bad...really bad...

i hate tears especially one that i cannot do anything about it...

i simply do not like standing while looking at them..
maybe it's because of my sense of empathy... or is it my pride? well i don't know....

i hate being unable to do anything whenever tears starts dropping from one's eyes....i really do...sigh*

Sometimes i wish this feeling will just vanish...leaving me behind with nothing but pride yet i do not want to let go of it, for it makes me human...being prideful doesn't mean that one has become unhuman..

it's just that for me...this feeling is precious for it help me to get closer to everyone...

maybe i'm naive but i love making friends...i really do... and when i does, i don't simply consider them as friend but as brothers and sisters...

that's why i will do everything that i could to get in term with everyone..to help them and help myself...

and that's also why its hard for me...

Oh~ how i wish... i can be prideful and still keep my sense of empathy at the same time....

One's pride or One's principal in life?

Being naive or standing up for one's pride, which do you prefer?
Well if it's me i'll choose to be naive if i am too live up to my principal which is; satisfy other first before yourself. Well it's not that i don't have a pride at all but one's pride can be keep inside when one's mind tell oneself too be humble. And if you're wondering whether or not people will step on you, then the answer is....YES!

Of course its human nature to step over things when given an opportunity especially when the one who's being step on is being lenient...Too lenient...sigh*
People may call it stupid and continuously stress upon one's naivety but is it simply naivety and stupidity?

It is hard to be naive when you yourself know what will happen; how they'll treat you,what's the risk of being one and furthermore will you stand living up to your own principle? For instance, when you are being too kind to others, they might think that you are easy to be manipulated but what they don't know is ONE is being kind with conscience and willingness..

Yes..its true that its not easy to be such person as at times, one will face doubt whether to continue being kind; satisfying other need before oneself or to be prideful and simply ignores them...

this applies to all sort of relationship...as a leader; when you become a good leader, then of course people will start to take light of you...and its hard to command them but the relationship are great...though it might be a double-edge sword; when there's problem in the society..the leader with highly sense of empathy will be feeling responsible for everything...sigh* so which one will we choose? being naive or being prideful? hmmphh...it depends on oneself...